Happy Birthday

Last week I wrote about love, and my husband. Today is my husbands birthday! We go all out for birthdays. We do so because I think the two of us really understand that celebrating each year we have is a spectacular way to show love. We do so because we have had uncertain times with my health, and times in which we didn’t know what the future held and how many years we’d get to celebrate together. We do so because we believe that each day should not be taken for granted, because each day is another reason to wake up and spread love and happiness. And on birthdays, what better way to acknowledge another year on this earth, another absolutely love filled year. I just can’t write enough words to tell you how I love my husband, or how much he means to me, or how great I think he is. We’ve been through a lot in the past few years. We’ve gone through things that a lot of people don’t come out of. But we’ve gone through it, singing, dancing, and loving, each step of the way. Wherever you are right now, be sure to tell someone how much they mean to you, how much you love them, how much you care for them. Remember always that life is fragile and beautiful, and to be celebrated often. And especially on birthdays – go all out, celebrate the day that the world was changed by one person….

Happy Birthday baby I love you.

30

Today I turn 30. I wanted to find a photo that somehow represented this milestone. When I was 18 I had a group of friends, who I never thought I would celebrate a future birthday with out. At 21, I was the recipient of a big surprise party, lots and lots of college friends. Some of those friends are still in my life, but the other 50 or so? I’m not so sure. I turned 25 and had a group of friends, including women who were my bridesmaids, and thought that these were certainly life long friends. A couple of them are still around.. Last year I had a packed house and an invite list of over 60 people, and I thought they would all be in my life for years to come. A few of them remain as well, but many have gone their separate ways.  This birthday has been hard in that aspect. While I have a few good and wonderful friends, I’ve also lost a lot of people, especially this past year. I’ve also changed a lot. I have been terribly sad about this, and then this morning while preparing with my husband for the days birthday activities I thought about all of those faces, the ones that were in my life for a moment in time. The ones I thought I’d know forever.  I wonder what it would be like to simply be at peace that these people were a part of my life for a while, and it’s ok that they are no longer. They make up the history of my life, and my future, will continually change, mold and shape, and for each of those steps, the faces may change. In the end though, they will all make up the fabric of my life, be it a short time, or many years. I’ve been on this Earth for 30 years, I continue to change and evolve and discover who I am. This is not a process to mourn any longer, but one to celebrate. Those faces represent fabric, not loss. They represent places I’ve been. And they represent the few who have remained through it all, and that today is what I love. Life is beautiful, indeed.